Tales of a Spiritually-Closeted Socialite

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Growing up, it was common knowledge for me that we had past lives, angels were real, and our loved ones never truly left us. My mom often taught my sister and I about angels and how to ask for help. We were taught to shield ourselves with white light. If we needed help with anything, we were taught to say “on Angels’ wings…”, something that my sister got tattooed as an adult. As I got older, these beliefs became internal and less acknowledged in everyday interactions. I often explained why I was a vegetarian to people, because I believed humans and animals come from the same source, but I never got much more into it than that.

My dad passed away a month before my 21st birthday. What is an American college girl to do to get over her grief? I started going out… a lot. I was the girl who orchestrated nights out, limos, and townhouse parties. As my social network grew, I often threw VIP parties at local bars, and organized themed parties at my place. I filled my grief with friends and vodka. I didn’t care if you were gay, straight, considered an outcast in high school, or what your background was. I knew life can be hard and that everyone deserved a good time. I feel that’s why so many different kinds of people were friendly with me. If you were the odd one out because you couldn’t afford to come, I would pay. If you needed a ride, I would drive. If you wanted a place to crash, I would accommodate. I loved bringing different people together and having a good time. My little pockets of friends became one big circle. I never wanted the party to end. While I delved deeper into the social scene in southeast Michigan, and made friends around my college, I also started receiving signs and messages from my father through psychics and tangible signs at synchronistic moments, which wasn’t the lightest party subject. I kept a lot of my experiences to myself for awhile. I would go out with metaphysical crystals in my purse, and an angel wing around my neck, all the while feeling a little bit like a hypocrite and not completely myself.

Through my journey I realized my most dramatic signs were experienced while sober. My biggest breakthroughs happened when I gave up drinking. I made a promise to myself to do whatever it took to take care of myself and help my intuition. I started using natural beauty products, gave up drinking, drank lots of fruit smoothies, and ate lots of healthful veggies and fruits (See video: 5 Steps to Develop Psychic Awareness). Signs were coming to me all the time, but I often missed my friends.

While most of my “party” friends lost interest in me when I stopped going out, I hung on to a few. For the sake of privacy, we will be calling my best friend, Miles. Miles and I loved going to a gay bar named Pronto in Royal Oak for Karaoke night. I remember deciding to go out again for the first time since I promised myself to take better care of myself. It would be my first sober night at this particular place.

Miles and I made our way over to the bartenders, who knew our names. I ordered a lemonade instead of my usual raspberry stoli and lemonade. The music was loud and the place was only mildly busy. We stood next to the bar, avoiding blocking others who wanted to walk up for a drink.

I started telling Miles about the increase in signs I had been getting. He knew I had experienced numerology signs, but it was evolving (See video: Signs from Heaven Using Numerology).

“It’s more than just repeating numbers now at weird times. It’s been feathers and pennies lately,” I said loudly over the music. ” I will be thinking about my dad or Angels and I will see a penny in a weird place or a feather will come into my view at that moment.”

While I was looking at Miles, I felt as if something dropped on my right foot. I looked down to see a penny facing up on my black, knee-high boot.

“Umm, are you serious right now?” I exclaimed to my friend. “Did you drop that?”

“No,” Miles answered as he held his drink.

We both looked around. There wasn’t anyone next to us or any sign of someone passing by. At that moment, we both looked up as if it fell from the sky and laughed. Miles had this contagious, goofy laugh everyone loved to mimic. The old bar ceiling was painted a dark color and had patterns that suggested it was built a century ago. It had no logical place a penny could have fallen from.

“That’s really weird,” Miles said, still laughing.

I couldn’t help but smile. I was elated at the sight of a sign right on cue.

“See what I mean! There are even Angels with us right here in the gay bar!” I said, excitedly.

Those moments taught me that the divine is everywhere with everyone, no exceptions. The absence of the divine is just perception from man and is a fallacy. Even in a late night bar with drunken people, the divine is there. No one is excluded. No moment is excluded. It took a night out in a different state of mind to marry my two experiences of life: a party girl, and a spiritual practitioner. Perception is everything.

All Dogs Go to Heaven

The past few months have rocked my world. I’ve known both losses and miracles in such a short time. I am truly sorry to say one of my little co-hosts from my video blogs, Scooby, passed today. He was only a few years old. It’s such a strange feeling, being that he was perfectly healthy a few days ago. The vet could only speculate a bacterial infection or a poison, but something consumed Scooby’s liver, kidneys, and pancreas within a few short days.

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I am an extremely spiritual person and called upon every guide I have to intervene in his sickness and passing. While this has worked to revive my other miniature dachshund, Reesie, last month, I felt almost abandoned in Scooby’s circumstance. Reesie had a slipped disc of the spine and I was told last month she would never walk again. Between natural remedies like turmeric, prayers, and lots of love from both me and Scooby, Reesie could miraculously walk again. After witnessing her miraculous recovery, I was very optimistic when Scooby started throwing up a few days ago.

I thought Scooby was improving last night, so I went to work like normal this morning. I left him cuddling close with Reesie, his paws literally holding her. When I returned home from lunch, he did not lift his head from the bed, just blinked at me. When I held him, he plopped against my shoulder and started vomiting blood without heaving, without moving much, and barely breathing. Without delay, I went to the nearest animal hospital. I put meditation music on in the car and stroked him until we arrived. When I finally got him to the vet, the doctor could not detect a heart beat. I stroked his chest and called for him. As if responding to me, his heart started beating. He looked at me and opened his mouth, as if saying good bye. I will never forget that moment. I called upon the angels for a healing. I wanted nothing more than to be able to take him back home. The vet was not able to regulate his heart beat, but did take him away to give him oxygen and run blood work. It wasn’t long after the results showing his internal organs were failing that the doctor told me he was gone. I glanced down at the time at that moment. It was 2:44 pm. 44’s are a strong angel number. I knew the angels were with him.

A part of me will always believe Scooby deserved better. He had a short life. Before we rescued him, he was found by Furever Homes in Detroit abandoned. He was living in a run down house missing a wall. He was malnourished and needed care. Instantly upon fostering him, he became part of the family. We finally adopted him shortly after. Reesie and Scooby were two peas in a pod. He bonded with my husband on a deep level. You could see an old, sweet soul in his eyes. He barely barked (except for peanut butter) and was always so affectionate. Scooby’s nature humbled me. How could a being abandoned by the world and left to starve to death, be so truly serene, loving and trusting?

Moments like these make you really think about what’s important in life. My favorite moments in the past few years seemed almost insignificant in the present as it passed me by. Every moment I spent with both my dogs cuddling, playing, and loving, whether it was when we cuddled in bed, went for long walks, or played along the “wiener rail” (the back of my couch), I will never forget the tender moments we all shared together. Life is so short. Never waste a moment that you can share love, whether it be with an animal, a family member, or a friend.

Even though my feeble human mind can not understand why some live and some die, I know a bigger plan is in place. The angels were there today with Scooby, even though he did not live to see another day. I do not believe his death was meaningless. I pulled a card from the “Talking with Heaven” deck from James Van Praagh and Doreen Virtue tonight. It said, “I am now one of your guides.” What a strong guide this sweet soul will be. You were more than a dog to me, Scooby, you were a soulmate. You will always be a part of my soul group, little buddy. You were an earth angel who gave so much love and taught me so much with your unconditionally loving soul. See you again one day.

In Memory…

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Sending Intentions on Super Moon, September 2014

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Tonight is the third and last Super Moon of the summer. A Super moon is an intensified new moon or full moon as far as the effects it has on you, energetically. The Super Moon is in Pisces, bringing us a huge waterfall of emotions. Full moons can often have an emotional effect on us, but when in Pisces, a water sign, emotional healing is dramatically heightened.

As with every full moon, the Super Moon is an opportunity to send new intentions out for the next cycle. In ancient traditions, full moons were said to be able to bring anything to you from abundance to love. Setting intentions will attract an aim very quickly. Each loving word, thought and intention we create in turn sends more loving energy into the world. Human beings have powerful manifestation abilities. We are all alchemists in the sense that we can create and transform the existence around us. As more people send out loving vibrations into the world, the Earth truly resonates at a higher vibration. Let’s continue to send intentions to lift Mother Earth up on this Super Moon. 💗

Consciousness in an Acorn

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I was driving the other day near my house and came across a road called “Lonesome Oak.” I started thinking about human beings’ tendency to project human emotions on nature (which we so often do). Many in our society view Oak as the loneliest tree. I grew up attending a small school in the country and know from my schooling there that Oak trees have to have enough space in the soil for their complicated root systems. Other trees cannot be planted next to an Oak if you want it to be healthy. It never dawned on me as a child that the Oak is a lonely tree. The tree receives all the nourishment it needs from it’s personal sources: the Earth below and the Sun above. It does not need tree companions to do what it is in existence to do: grow. However, I can see from a very physical perspective how an Oak could look lonely to the untrained eye because the tree is often alone from other trees.

Consciousness can essentially be explained in an acorn. Humans can be viewed like an Oak tree. From a physical perspective, human beings could look very lonely on their own. Many people who live an unconscious life actually become scared to be physically alone since they cannot see beyond the physical veil. Like the roots of an Oak tree into the Earth, our minds are connected to infinite energy and consciousness. We can harness energy and knowledge from the source without needing to take the energy and resources from our peers. Like the Oak tree, the natural state of consciousness is to grow and expand. If an Oak tree decided to be planted next to another Oak tree, both Oak would experience less than prime health. When we lean on our fellow men instead of the one true source within us, our understanding becomes limited. We can do this on our own. We do not need a priest, a temple, a guru friend, or any external guidance. Living a conscious, healthy, and positive life can plant future acorns of peace for future generations of Oak Trees to grow big and strong.

Since all human conflict arises out of the appearance of lack, take a moment to imagine a world where everybody had enough abundance to go around because of the eternal and personal connection to source. Looks pretty amazing, right? Some say it would be chaos without the man made rules we impose on ourselves, but those in the know understand that reestablishing a personal connection to the divine source diminishes any seeming conflict. Abundance for all is within our reach. It is our challenge this life to bring peace to a world who is just beginning to understand what true abundance looks like. Peace on Earth is not only very possible, but completely attainable for everyone.

The School of Life

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Everyone you meet is a divine appointment and opportunity for growth. Remember that you chose to come here. You are not a victim of the human experience. The human experience is a choice. Earth is a school. Rumi believed that each of us is the universe experiencing itself and learning through itself. Every person you have ever met, every person you know, and every person you will ever meet is here to teach you something. Your interpretations of the lessons learned determines your outlook and your experience here. Choose your thoughts about others wisely. Look at others through the lens of compassion.

Ego versus Eco

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I have been a vegetarian of over 11 years and a vegan just recently. I always respected the innocence of animals and never wanted any animal to be in pain. This journey started when I realized that animals were not just being killed quickly, but absolutely tortured their entire lives. Throughout the years I have been teased, bullied, harassed, and manipulated into eating animal products unbeknownst to me. My philosophy became one that I wouldn’t tell you how I feel about you eating meat, if you would stop teasing me about being a vegetarian. This sense of complacency has really bothered me recently.

I thought I was doing the world a favor by being “respectful” of other people’s lives. Unfortunately, I forgot one other perspective: the animals. Now that I know that human beings are one with life, all creatures are beings created by God and who am I to stop another heart beat? Our notion that animals were put here for us to eat is extremely primitive in nature and an ego-based thought. When did killing become a sport? There are so many healthy alternatives to meat that killing anything is now just a game.

If you won’t stop eating meat for the animal, let me tell you how this energy is affecting your being. When bodies are stressed and fearful, chemicals are released. These chemicals are not taken from animal meat before you consume it. If you can picture your energy as a big ball around you, and everything you say, think, and eat powers this energy, would you want to power your energy with toxic fear? Fear is what keeps us from experiencing true oneness with God. Once this truth is realized, eating meat becomes blasphemous. Every being has a divine spark of light within.

Affirm: I am one with all of God’s creation.

Myth Buster: Unrequited Love

Unrequited love does not exist in our universe. Consider the text book definition. The dictionary defines unrequited as “not reciprocated or returned in kind.” I am already hearing the cries, “But Johnny didn’t love me!” or “I was never good enough for him!” or better yet, “She never even noticed me.” I still stand by my statement that unrequited love is a myth in this universe.

Why a myth, you ask? Love is a form of energy, and energy in our universe is never really lost. As a society, we have gotten so caught up in the physicality of “boy meets girl- falls in love” that we lose the sense of what love really is. Consider that everything in the universe is connected with energy. Consciousness in essence is where your thoughts dwell. While some may stay locked in the cause and effect, linear mentality, others transcend that limiting belief. Some say that the smallest shift in consciousness can ripple throughout time and space. One physical moment of deep love can leave it’s ripple effect throughout your entire life unbeknownst to you for most of your physical life.

Love is the highest vibrational emotion you can emit. In the material world, if you find yourself getting caught up loving someone who does not seem to physically reciprocate your feelings, remember that the energy you are emitting is never wasted and should not discourage you from being a vessel of love. Many people will harden their hearts to keep the hurt out, but in truth you are only hurting the self from cutting it off from the universe. Be as soft as you were before the seemingly unpleasant experience. The universe always matches your vibrational frequency. If you find yourself sending love to someone and physically, they do not do the same, do not let it bring you down. Stay in love. Be open to receiving it back from the universe in other ways– even though it is not what you originally expected. The universe can shower back your love in many different ways: more leisure, abundance, golden opportunities, or new loving people in your life. The possibilities are endless. The truth is we do live in a very loving universe. Unrequited love was invented by man’s meek understanding of the notion of love from a very physical perspective. Love is always returned to you, no matter how different the outward appearance may initially seem.

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A Poem for Freedom

Within the locks of conscious minds
Are whispers beckoning you to find
The miracle that awaits within,
Somewhere buried beneath your skin.

For something is never lost for long,
When it’s presence has been there all along.
There’s no escaping destiny.
There’s no where left for you to flee.

When the walls you’ve built come crashing down,
Only then will you be found.
Eyes wide open, we patiently wait
For love to open the golden gate.

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Making Decisions from a Place of Awareness

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When you find yourself making tough decisions, look inward. What are your insides telling you? Tapping into your intuition will help you make a decision from a place of awareness instead of fear. As a living being, you are wired to be a perfect vessel for energy. Nikola Tesla says it best: “If you want to find the secrets of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration.” Everyone has an inner truth detector when tapping into the energy of others. I think of it like sensing chord and key changes in music. When you hear a music chord progression go from playing a major chord to a minor chord, your whole body can feel that change. When you really tune into what someone is saying, and they lie, your body feels the energy of the lie in the same way you would a change in key. Something feels wrong, or out of perfect harmony.

Many people repeat untruths while not being consciously aware they are lying. There are a many misconceptions that are repeated as fact within society. When confronted with decisions in life, it is best to keep a bird’s eye view. By this, I mean to look at your life and your overall purpose from a broader perspective. By tuning into your inner guidance, you can feel which step is the best next step to take. Does this bring me closer to my life’s purpose or away from it? Which action brings you more peace? Your inner truth detector will help you navigate through the untruths.

If you find that you are having difficulty in feeling your inner guidance, I would suggest clearing the chakras through meditation. A guided meditation for chakra clearing would be a good place to start. I personally like Doreen Virtue’s “Chakra Clearing” meditation CD. You will notice that as time goes on, and you are clearing your chakras regularly, your intuition will become much more clear. As you rediscover yourself and your intuition, your path will become illuminated. You may never know exactly where your life is going, but your guidance will help you know which next step to take. Do not stand still based in fear. Charge forward fearlessly. Open up to endless possibilities. Once you make a clear decision, the Universe will answer and bring you everything you need along the way. Have faith, be fearless, be light.