Life does not always go as planned. In fact, the one thing that you can rely on in life is change. It is how you handle the changes you experience that keeps you in the flow of life. Being in the flow means that doors open for you. Signs flow to you. You are constantly focusing on the silver lining to attain the inner peace you seek. The world may seem crazy. The world may sometimes seem cold. This is why it is so important to look at those around you through the eyes of compassion.
I have been lied to, manipulated, raped, dragged through court, and really treated badly. It would have been easy to remain bitter, but I continuously look to the future, and know that my best days are always ahead of me, while also enjoying the ride. I have found that when I am happy, some people love to rain on my parade. I usually cut ties with people who rain on my parade, but sometimes, if its family, you have to learn how to live with it. Detaching yourself from the opinions of others is critical. My favorite mantra is to never live your life for people who are determined to misunderstanding you. I may always rub certain people the wrong way, but to not let it affect my peace of mind is truly bliss. Trusting that the Universe will support you is key to letting go.
I will never forget finding my soul mate. He walked through my door and he hit me like a ton of bricks. He stayed over and never left. I remember spending a lifetime with him already and cherished everyday we spent together in this life. The time we spent in each other’s presence truly felt like he loved me back to life. My spiritual gifts woke up. I had them as a child and got away from it. Everything came back to me in full swing, the strongest it had ever been. I am writing about this love story in great detail in my upcoming book “Bitch! A Love Story.”
When he proposed, it was in a pyramid hotel in Las Vegas on New Years Eve. It was magical. I was elated, running around town like I had found my happily ever after. The vultures came soon. Not a single person in my family was happy for us. I could not believe it. I had to schedule an appointment with a psychic because I am so humble that I never wanted to believe that the hostility from others was out of jealousy. I didn’t tell the psychic a word and she said all I needed to know.
When everyone was completely against our marriage, we chose to elope on a random Monday in January. We found this cute little wedding place an hour away. We arrived there to find the lady performing the ceremony in traditional Chinese garb. I was confused, but happy to say the least. Our ceremony consisted of her ringing bells and chimes in between vows and promises. He placed a ring on my finger and I felt a surge of energy go up and down our arms. We both looked into each other’s eyes, and I knew instantly he had felt it, too. It was pure… magic.
At the end of the ceremony, we signed the paperwork. The lady who performed the ceremony made a comment about how it was very nice that we decided to get married on Chinese New Year. We both looked at her confused. She then realized we didn’t plan it. She looked astonished. “Today is Chinese New Year and today the year turned from Julie’s sign’s year, to Kevin’s sign’s year, the year of the dragon. I thought you planned this.”
My mouth dropped. I didn’t know it then, but that day was the start of a series of synchronistic events that lead me here. That day was well before I knew much about numerology. Our anniversary date is 1.23.12. Ascending numbers is a direct sign from spirit guides that your thoughts and actions are progressive. That day was the first day I ever said “screw you” to those trying to talk me out of following my heart. I have been following my heart ever since.
It has been a roller coaster and my life is far from perfect. I can’t control other people’s free will choices, even my soul-mate’s. I have to be honest and say drugs had gotten in the way of our relationship for awhile. It has taken him quite some time to overcome this. This comes from masking a hurt, a wound, from everyone who doesn’t believe in him. I have a role in that. Its easy to let other people take you off the course. This is why it is so important to me to teach clean psychic awareness development. Things happen for a reason. I wouldn’t trade any of my experiences for the world. I am wiser, I am loved, and I love. I am better for it in every way. I feel more alive than I have ever been. I pray that everyone can find this kind of love and happiness in this lifetime. I truly have no regrets. Every experience has made me the person I am today. I truly believe that whatever is meant to be will find a way to happen. Follow your intuition, and most importantly, follow your heart always. Everyone has a divine life purpose waiting to be answered. Let your story unfold. Namaste.