Signs from Heaven, Shifts on Earth: A Reflection on Meeting RFK Jr.

By Julie Tourangeau @julietour

“Synchronicity is an ever-present reality for those who have eyes to see.” – Carl Jung

I’ve lived enough life to know a sign from God when I see one.

My journey has always moved to the rhythm of synchronicity—sacred alignments, divine nudges, moments that unfold with a kind of spiritual precision that defies logic. So no, I don’t believe it was any coincidence that I met Robert F. Kennedy Jr. on October 7, 2023.

It wasn’t just a date on the calendar. It was the day everything shifted.

What I didn’t know at the time was that across the globe, a devastating attack by Hamas had just unfolded, igniting the latest violent chapter of the Israel-Gaza conflict. But I felt the weight of the day before I knew the headlines. There was something in the air. My soul registered it before my mind could.

And then, there was Bobby.

He spoke that day with the fire and clarity I’d come to respect him for. He talked about cutting $500 million from the military-industrial complex. About ending our involvement in foreign wars. About redirecting our energy and resources inward—toward peace, healing, sovereignty. It felt aligned with the Kennedy legacy. With truth.

But something changed.

In the weeks that followed, I watched Bobby’s tone shift. Suddenly, he was defending Israel’s military campaign, stating that any nation under similar attack would “level Gaza.” Meanwhile, over 17,000 Palestinian children have been killed since the start of the war. Children. The kind of innocent life I believe the Kennedy I followed would have spoken out for, unequivocally.

Back in 2022, at the Defeat the Mandates rally, I heard him say something that chilled me. He warned us that if a regime like the Nazis had access to today’s surveillance technology, “it would be game over.” He mentioned Anne Frank—not to diminish her suffering, but to show how much harder resistance would be in our time. He said there are some things worse than dying… like living under totalitarian rule. And if it came to that, he said he’d be willing to die with his bootstraps on.

Moments prior to the Defeat the Mandates event on January 23, 2022.

That’s the Bobby I believed in. That’s the kind of courage that inspired so many of us.

And yet now, it seems like his boldness has softened—on foreign policy, on pharma, on the very systems he once vowed to confront.

Then there’s AIPAC.

What most people don’t realize is that back in the early ’60s, JFK’s Department of Justice ordered the American Zionist Council—the group that would later rebrand as AIPAC—to register as a foreign agent under the Foreign Agents Registration Act (FARA). The Kennedy administration gave them a deadline. They stalled. And then, just before that deadline passed… JFK was assassinated.

Shortly after, AIPAC quietly emerged, asserting it was a domestic lobby and escaping foreign agent registration. But let’s be honest—it acts on behalf of a foreign government. And it’s time we finish what JFK started. AIPAC should be treated as a foreign agent. Because that’s exactly what it is.

And here’s what makes this even more personal: Bobby’s own father, Robert F. Kennedy, was assassinated in 1968—allegedly by Sirhan Sirhan, a Palestinian man. But in 2016, RFK Jr. publicly stated that he believed Sirhan was innocent. Framed. He visited him in prison and became convinced that the official story didn’t add up. Programs like MK Ultra have since come to light—experiments in mind control, memory loss, and behavioral manipulation—and Sirhan himself has long claimed he doesn’t remember the shooting. Forensic evidence supports the idea that he wasn’t even standing in the correct position to shoot Bobby’s father from behind. Witnesses have testified there was a second shooter in the pantry. But that truth, like so many others, was buried.

But here’s where the story deepens.

We are living in a time of spiritual awakening. And it’s no accident that the name “Israel” has come to the forefront again. In early Christianity, “Israel” wasn’t just a nation. It was a name given to the people of God—those who wrestle with the divine, those who walk the path of truth. The word itself comes from “Isra” (to struggle or contend) and “El” (God). In this sense, Israel was never meant to be about borders or politics. It was always about inner transformation. A spiritual identity.

What if what we’re witnessing now—the chaos, the polarization, the war—isn’t just geopolitical?

What if it’s a test?

What if we’re being asked to wake up, to remember what the word Israel really meant before empire distorted it? To return to the path of peace, truth, and divine alignment. To see clearly what is real, and what has been manufactured.

I don’t know what kind of pressure Bobby is under behind the scenes, but I can imagine. The CIA, Israeli intelligence, the ghosts of his father’s and uncle’s deaths—all woven through this story. But I also know this:

As I walked out of that building on October 7, unsure of how to feel, unsure of what was changing in him… the sky gave me my answer.

Rainbows.

Moments after meeting Bobby walking out of the building to the parking garage.

Not just one. But a sky full of them, unfolding one after another from the moment I left until the moment I pulled into my driveway—an hour and a half of color and light breaking through the clouds.

To me, rainbows have always been signs from Heaven—reminders that we are not alone, that even in our confusion, there’s covenant and presence. I believe those rainbows were a message not just to me, but to him.

Rainbows consistently all the way home to my neighborhood in Rochester Hills, an hour and a half away.

Whatever Bobby is facing, I believe his ancestors are with him. I believe Heaven is with him. I believe the true spirit of Israel—the wrestlers of God, the truth seekers, the peace-makers—is still alive in him somewhere.

He said he’d die with his bootstraps on if it meant standing up to a totalitarian regime. I still believe that man exists.

And I pray he remembers who he is.

Because now more than ever, we need someone brave enough to finish what his family started.

And choose truth—even if it costs everything.

Rally for Kennedy 2024 in Lansing, Michigan October 7, 2023.

Den of “Thieves”? Or Something Deeper.

By Julie Tourangeau | @julietour

When Jesus stormed the temple courts, overturning tables and driving out the money changers, we’re often told it was a righteous act against corruption—against the “thieves” who turned a holy place into a marketplace.

But what if that’s only part of the story?

What if the word “thieves” doesn’t quite capture what was happening?

The Word We Missed

The original Hebrew word used in this passage is “perits” (פָּרִיץ)—often translated as “thieves,” but more accurately meaning violent ones, marauders, or destroyers.

This isn’t about petty crime.

It’s about violence.

About those who had turned the temple—a place meant for prayer, reverence, and peace—into a place of bloodshed.

Jesus wasn’t just flipping tables over coins.

He was confronting the violent ritual slaughter of animals in the name of God.

His protest wasn’t just about dishonest trade.

It was a cry for compassion, for justice, for a return to the sacred.

If He Walked Among Us Now

If Jesus were alive today—reincarnated, awake to the fullness of his early teachings—what would he see?

Would he walk into modern-day churches and find doves for sale?

Would he find lambs being sacrificed?

No.

But he’d find the same violence, cloaked in different robes.

He’d see his name invoked over meals made of suffering.

He’d see Easter tables lined with lambs, celebrated in remembrance of his own crucifixion.

And I imagine he’d grieve.

I imagine he’d say:

“You claim to follow me, yet you partake in the very acts I condemned.

You remember my suffering with the suffering of the innocent.

You turn my table of liberation into an altar of slaughter.

Have you not learned?”

The Lost Path

Early Christians understood dominion as stewardship, not superiority.

They practiced mercy, not sacrifice.

They aligned themselves with the Lamb of God, not the priests of Empire.

But somewhere along the way, that path was lost.

Love was replaced by law.

Awakening was replaced by ritual.

And the animals—the innocent ones Jesus likely defended—were left behind.

It’s Time to Return

The temple was never meant to be a place of blood.

The gospel was never meant to justify harm.

And Jesus never died so we could keep killing in his name.

He flipped tables to wake people up.

And maybe, just maybe…

he’s still doing it.

Let those with ears hear.

Let those with hearts soften.

Let us return to the path of compassion—for all beings.

A Rose Among Philosophers: How Rousseau Led Me Home

A soul-guided journey through legacy, synchronicity, and the return to spiritual freedom

Some moments in life feel divinely timed—so layered with meaning that you know they were written into your story long before you arrived.

It started with a playful comment I made to fellow insurance agents:

“Let’s go to Amsterdam after our trip to Munich!”

We all laughed—but the name stuck. I became Amsterdam for the rest of the season.

That nickname would turn out to be a sign.

As I planned my travels, I felt pulled toward France. I reached out to my Uncle George, who my mother credited for recording our family tree, curious if there were any family connections there. That’s when he shared something I had never known: we are descended from Jean-Jacques Rousseau, through a man named Noël Rousseau—an ancestor who changed his surname to Rose when he fled to the New World in search of freedom from persecution.

It was a family secret, one my uncle may have carried quietly for years. I had lived my whole life unaware of the truth, and yet everything began to fall into place.

I started researching Rousseau’s work and discovered a novel I had never read: Julie, or the New Heloise.

My name.

And on the original title page, I saw the place where it was first published:

Amsterdam.

Julie… Amsterdam.

My nickname. My name. A divine breadcrumb, perfectly timed.

I followed it all the way to France.

The trip itself was far from smooth. The person I had planned it with left me after a tense night at the Moulin Rouge, canceling all of our future reservations.

On the street alone outside the show, admiring the iconic landmark.

I was suddenly alone. But I pressed on. I had an incredible experience alone in the Loire Valley the next morning, as if it was always supposed to happen that way. I had remembered being there before, though I had never been.

A tribute to Rousseau in a Loire Valley Chateau.

The next day, I then went to the Panthéon in Paris, where Rousseau is buried—only to arrive just minutes too late. I was turned away at the gate for having my ticket canceled.

Heartbroken, I walked away in tears… and that’s when I met him.

Outside the Panthéon.

Outside the resting place of my ancestor.

That’s where I met my fiancé.

Love, legacy, and freedom converged in a single moment I could never have scripted.

And now I understand: this path isn’t just mine. It’s inherited. Rousseau was one of the most influential voices of the Enlightenment—but not the godless radical many paint him to be. He was spiritual without dogma, deeply reverent of Jesus, and morally ahead of his time.

“If the life and death of Socrates are those of a sage, the life and death of Jesus are those of a god.”

(Émile)

He believed in the innate goodness of humanity, and in our natural empathy for animals:

“The blood of animals revolts us in our infancy, before habit has changed our nature.”

Like me, he believed true freedom comes from within—and that constraint placed upon conscience is the most dangerous kind.

“Happiness is the absence of constraint. The only chains that do not shackle are those we forge from love.”

(Julie, or the New Heloise)

That quote feels like it was left for me to find. And now I carry it forward—in my life, my work, and the book I’m writing: The Lost Path to Freedom.

This was never just a story about travel. It was a spiritual homecoming. A remembering. A breaking open of a secret long held in silence, finally ready to be lived out loud.

Follow my journey as I continue to explore this path.

[Instagram: @julietour]

A Memory That Changed Everything: Fear, Reincarnation, and Awakening

I’ve wanted to share this story so many times, but now feels like the right moment. Some truths take years to fully understand, to find the words that do them justice. From a heart that remembers—like a French rose pressed between the pages of time—to yours, I offer this glimpse into a journey that began long before this lifetime.

When I was 14, around the time I was becoming a confirmed Catholic, I had a vision of a past life. Not a dream, not a fleeting thought—an undeniable memory. I saw myself standing before a crowd, their faces twisted with fear, hate, and misunderstanding. Then came the sword to the back of my neck. I was a good person, yet they did this to a good person. The injustice, the pain—it was too real.

That vision changed me. I was supposed to perform in a talent show, something I had never shied away from before. I had played Dorothy in The Wizard of Oz. I had sung with confidence throughout my childhood. But after this vision, I called off. Not because I was sick, but because something deep within me recoiled at the idea of standing in front of people. It wasn’t stage fright. It was something ancient.

But fate had a way of making me face it.

On my last day as a student, at graduation—a day when speeches were expected, not performances—the teacher who was doing my 8th grade graduation speech unexpectedly asked me to sing. No one else. Just me. It was unusual. A final test, perhaps. And in that moment, I stayed present. I overcame the fear just long enough to do it. But even as I sang, I felt the weight of something unfinished. The fear lingered, buried beneath the surface, waiting for me to fully understand. I was relieved when the applause hit my ears.

Years later, I researched the name of the person I had remembered being. Her personality, her family, the dynamics of her life—it was too aligned to dismiss. It was me. But what do you do with a truth like that? I tried to ignore it, focus on the present, move forward.

Then, over 20 years later, I went to France.

The moment I arrived in the Loire Valley, I knew I had been there before. One particular staircase pulled me in. Later, I found out it was built from a Leonardo da Vinci drawing—a double-helix design, mirroring DNA strands centuries before they were discovered. And then I learned something even more startling: da Vinci and the person I remembered being had lived in the same part of France at the same time. She was just a young lady then.

I asked for a sign. If this is real, let me see something clear from da Vinci himself.

The weekend after I returned from France, I came across a video analyzing one of his paintings. This was a suggested video from 4bidden knowledge, I didn’t even search for it, Hidden within it was an encoded da Vinci sketch over a figure’s head—a symbol of reincarnation from Egypt. The figure? The video narrator Robert Edward Grant, a cryptologist, speculated it was the person I remembered being- which are two people the world never connected in any history lesson I’ve ever attended. The suggestion? This soul had returned again and again, like Christ. The same code, but the opposite Egyptian eye is also over the head of Jesus in The Last Supper, suggesting they are the same soul. Robert Edward Grant called her « The Bullet », and I felt that. Her life was tragic, but she inspired great changes.

In that moment, memories flooded back—not just of my past life, but of teachings, of knowledge I had always carried without knowing why. It put my entire spiritual journey of profound synchronicity in context. (This is post Free Yourself from Grief being published.) This inspired me to delve more into the early teachings of Jesus which confirm he actually taught reincarnation and was an animal activist like myself no less.

Da Vinci understood. He was a Rosicrucian, someone who tracked incarnations, encoding wisdom for those who would come after him. He performed rituals, had visions, and grasped truths that most of the world still ignores. He was awake in a world that sleeps.

And I will always be grateful to him.

Because it takes a unique soul to walk this earth fully aware, to see beyond the illusions, and to dedicate themselves to lifting humanity toward its highest potential.

Some of us remember. Some of us wake up before others. And when we do, we have a choice—turn away in fear, or step forward into the unknown.

I choose to step forward. 🌹

Walking the Path of Logos: From “Crazy” to Inevitable Truth

Revisiting my first blogpost from over a decade ago, “The Perception of Crazy in an Evolving Society”, I can see patterns more clearly than ever after years of truth seeking and research.

A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I, or are the others crazy? – Albert Einstein

When I wrote my first blog post, I talked about how society labels the greatest innovators, thinkers, and truth-seekers as “crazy” until time catches up with them. This is a pattern that has played out for centuries. It’s not just about ideas—it’s about Logos, the divine truth and reason behind all things. And when someone embodies that truth, the world resists—until it can’t anymore.

I’ve lived this firsthand. I know what it’s like to be admired, then suddenly turned against. To have people support me, then try to sabotage me. I know what it’s like to survive financial and legal attacks just for walking a path that challenges deception. But Logos protects its own.

The people who change the course of history—Jesus, Anne Boleyn, Rousseau, even modern truth-seekers—are always ridiculed at first. The system will do anything to keep people asleep because the moment enough of us wake up, their illusion collapses.

When Truth Is Too Big to Ignore

Jimi Hendrix once said, “You have to go on and be crazy. Craziness is like Heaven.”

He was right. Because in a world built on deception, truth is insanity—until it isn’t.

Jesus was called a blasphemer. Now, billions follow his teachings.

Anne Boleyn was branded a traitor. Now, history sees her as a reformer.

Rousseau was exiled for his ideas. Now, his philosophies shape democracy.

Marie Antoinette was a scapegoat for a corrupt system’s collapse. And now? People see the truth behind the narrative.

The same pattern plays out today. Health freedom activists are silenced. Corrupt institutions brand truth-seekers as conspiracy theorists. Ancient wisdom is rewritten to fit the status quo. But history tells us exactly what happens next:

Logos always returns. Truth always wins.

Why They Try to Silence Us

“Don’t let the opinions of the average man sway you. Dream, and he thinks you’re crazy. Succeed, and he thinks you’re lucky. Acquire wealth, and he thinks you’re greedy.” – Robert G. Allen

The world doesn’t fight every idea—only the ones that threaten its foundation. If an idea seems absurd but harmless, it’s ignored. But when it has the power to shift consciousness, health, politics, or spiritual awareness, it gets attacked, censored, and erased.

• The true history of the Sphinx? Rejected.

• The suppression of holistic health and the corporate control of medicine? Censored.

• The return of Logos through reincarnation? Buried by dogma.

This is the reality: They only silence what they fear.

Breaking the Cycle: The Age of Awakening

Every time Logos incarnates—whether as a person, an idea, or a movement—it faces resistance. But once an idea reaches enough people, there’s no going back.

And right now? We are at the tipping point.

If you feel like the world is against you, if you’re tired of being called crazy, if you know deep down that something bigger is happening—then you’re in good company.

You’re not crazy. You’re ahead of your time.

History belongs to those who walk in truth despite the cost. And the cost is always worth it.

Keep speaking. Keep exposing. Keep questioning.

Because Logos always returns. And this time, we’re here to finish what was started.

#Logos #TruthSeeker #Julietour #Awakening #SoulMission #SpiritualWarfare #HistoryRepeats

Was Jesus a Vegetarian? Exploring Scripture, Mistranslations, and His Compassion for Animals

For centuries, the image of Jesus as a compassionate healer and teacher has been at the heart of Christianity. But was he also an advocate for a plant-based lifestyle? Evidence from modern-day translations of the Bible, alternative gospel texts, and linguistic studies suggest that Jesus may have opposed eating animals and even challenged the way we interpret certain food references in scripture.

God’s Original Plan: A Plant-Based Diet

In the very beginning, God created a world where humans and animals lived in harmony, sustained by plant-based foods:

“Behold, I have given you every plant yielding seed that is on the face of all the earth, and every tree with seed in its fruit. You shall have them for food.”Genesis 1:29

This verse suggests that in God’s ideal world, food was meant to come from the earth, not from killing animals. Even the prophetic visions of Isaiah describe a future where animals live in peace and do not harm one another:

“The wolf and the lamb shall graze together… They shall not hurt or destroy in all my holy mountain, says the Lord.”Isaiah 65:25

If God’s vision for creation was one without bloodshed, could it be that Jesus, as the ultimate teacher of love and mercy, followed this principle?

Did “Fish” Get Mistranslated?

One of the strongest arguments against Jesus being vegetarian is his feeding of the multitudes with “loaves and fish” (Matthew 14:13-21). But what if the word fish was mistranslated?

• The Greek word Ichthys (ἰχθύς) not only means fish but was also a symbolic acronym for “Jesus Christ, Son of God, Savior”—suggesting that the references to fish might have had deeper meanings.

• In Aramaic, the language Jesus likely spoke, some plant-based foods such as seaweed, legumes, or even pressed figs could have been confused with “fish” in later translations.

• Many early Christian sects, including the Essenes, were vegetarian and believed that Jesus was as well.

This raises the question: if Jesus was compassionate toward all life, would he have condoned the killing of fish for food, or was this a later addition to align with changing cultural norms?

Jesus Sets the Animals Free in the Temple

One of the most powerful moments of Jesus’ ministry was when he overturned the tables in the temple and set the animals free:

“And He found in the temple those who were selling oxen and sheep and doves… and He poured out the coins of the money changers and overturned their tables.”John 2:14-16

Modern-day translations of the Bible often say Jesus condemned the merchants for turning the temple into a “den of thieves.” However, the original Hebrew word used in Jeremiah 7:11, which Jesus was quoting, actually means “violent ones” rather than “thieves.” This suggests his anger was not just about corruption but about the violence being inflicted on innocent animals in a place of worship.

Rather than allowing the continued sale and sacrifice of animals, Jesus set them free—a powerful statement that aligns with a plant-based, non-violent philosophy.

Daniel’s Vegetarian Diet and Spiritual Clarity

Daniel, a prophet highly respected in both Jewish and Christian traditions, refused to eat the king’s rich food (which likely included meat) and instead requested a plant-based diet:

“Test your servants for ten days; let us be given vegetables to eat and water to drink.”Daniel 1:12

After ten days, Daniel and his companions were healthier and wiser than those who ate the king’s food. This passage suggests that a plant-based diet was not only physically beneficial but also spiritually purifying.

Jesus’ Teachings Align with Compassion for All Beings

While modern-day translations of the Bible do not explicitly state that Jesus was vegetarian, many of his teachings align with the principles of nonviolence and mercy toward all living creatures.

• He taught that God cares even for the sparrows (Luke 12:6).

• He healed and showed kindness to animals (Matthew 12:11).

• He overturned the tables of those selling animals for sacrifice, condemning the violence done to them.

If Jesus preached love, mercy, and a return to God’s original vision for creation, wouldn’t this include sparing animals from suffering?

Conclusion: A Call to Rethink Tradition

Throughout history, translations and cultural shifts may have altered how we interpret Jesus’ relationship with food and animals. By examining scripture more closely, we find strong evidence that:

• God’s original plan was a plant-based diet.

• Key biblical words, like “fish,” may have been mistranslated.

• Jesus actively opposed animal sacrifice and set animals free.

• Vegetarianism was practiced by early followers like Daniel and the Essenes.

Whether or not Jesus was fully vegetarian, his message was clear: compassion, mercy, and peace should extend to all of God’s creation.

Could embracing a plant-based lifestyle today be a way to honor his teachings and return to God’s vision for a world without harm?

Southwest Tofu Scramble

Compassion begins on your plate!

I genuinely do not miss eggs as a vegan, and a major reason is that I’ve experimented and perfected my favorite vegan breakfasts. I am often asked how I cook my tofu scramble, and after lots of trial and error, I wanted to share my favorite recipe and cooking process that I’ve developed. I hope you enjoy this as much as I do!

You will need (serves two):

1 package organic, sprouted extra firm tofu

1 tbsp garlic granules*

2 tbsp turmeric

2 tbsp nutritional yeast

2 chopped basil leaves

1 dollop of your favorite salsa

1 organic avocado

2 organic golden potatoes

1/2 organic white onion

1 package of washed organic spinach

Wildbrine Kimchi Probiotic Sriracha*

Celtic Sea Salt*

Ground black pepper*
*Proportions can be modified to taste.

🌱Preheat oven to 400 degrees.

🌱Slice potatoes into circles. In bowl, evenly toss potatoes in salt and pepper.

🌱Place sliced potatoes on cookie sheet, and cook on top shelf in oven until golden brown. (Cook times may vary per oven.)

🌱Slice tofu package.

🌱Pour “tofu guts” into a medium saucepan. Crumble extra firm tofu and place in the pan, turning on medium heat.

🌱Add turmeric, garlic granules, basil, nutritional yeast, salt and pepper to pan.

🌱Stir as needed.

🌱Once “tofu guts” water has started to cook away, add a dollop of salsa to the scramble mix.

🌱Slice onion. Add to sauce pan with a little water. Cook over medium heat until onions start to caramelize. Add spinach, and top with salt and pepper.

🌱Cut avocado in half. Spoon out green avocado onto a cutting board. Sprinkle pepper. Cut into slices.

🌱Pour finished tofu into two bowls. Add spinach and onion mixture divided evenly to both bowls. Dress with slices of potato, avocado slices, and finish with Kimchi Sriracha.  I love this Sriracha since it tastes amazing, and adds probiotics to any meal to help aid with digestion and support immunity.

🌱💚And, voila! You have mastered the tofu scramble. 🙌🏼💚🌱

When the Unthinkable Happens: 5 Lessons from the Afterlife 

Hearing about the death of a family member has triggered some deep reflection today. I think back to losing my dad, and how painful the funeral and family drama really was for me and my sibling. Dealing with a close death was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through, and I did it at such a young age. At the same time, it has taught me so much more about myself, existence, and divine timing than I could have ever imagined. It’s easy when something traumatic happens in this third dimensional reality to focus on the physical absence. What’s beautiful has been to see my dad reach out to us through undeniable signs, famous mediums, and not-so-famous intuitives during the passed eight years. I chronicle these life changing experiences in my upcoming book. 

There are a few life and afterlife lessons I have learned definitively that I want to share with those who are grieving today: 

1. Death is completely physical. Consciousness survives the physical death of the body. I received confirmation upon confirmation of this fact. One of the most hair raising moments was when it sounded like my dad’s voice and personality was literally coming through Theresa Caputo, TLC’s The Long Island Medium. Furthermore, modern science is also explaining death is an illusion through quantum physics. 

2. While no one ever really dies, their perspective changes to a metaphysical perspective. They no longer see existence from this third dimensional, human experience. Having this new bird’s eye view enables our loved ones to watch over us and work with angels to bring us signs, serving a new purpose in our lives as guardian angels. 

3. No matter how abrupt or untimely the death of someone seems, all death is on divine time. Awakening to this fact requires faith and trust. Like all experiences in life, we have the free will choice to let the experience tear us apart or make us stronger than ever. Making positive interpretations of death brings us to the highest perspective, inviting the miraculous into our lives. 

4. Speaking with our deceased loved ones is only a mental phone call away. While I didn’t always get an immediate reply, my dad always heard me and found ways to answer my questions. Know that they do see us, hear us, and know what we are going through. 

5. Our loved ones find their loved ones who have passed on the other side. No one is ever really alone and separation is an illusion. One of the first things my dad let me know is that he found his brother, which I wrote about how I came to know this years ago in my blog post “All Gays Go to Heaven“. 

These lessons have been learned through a lot of tears, and a lot of healing. My heart goes out to everyone going through losing a loved one. My intention is to share my experiences with the hope it brings comfort to those who feel lost. No one ever really dies, and death is not the end, just a doorway. We all eventually walk through that door. Love shared is eternal, and you will meet again. 

Facing Perception and Rejection

  
During the time in my life I consider my spiritual awakening, everything I had come to know was transitioning. I had surrounded myself in high school and college with very judgmental people who loved to gossip, chase wealth, party, and position themselves as elite in many ways. It has taken many years to funnel the people out of my life who refused to grow, and surround myself with totally accepting, loving people. I started this journey alone in many respects as I let go of those that no longer had my best interest at heart. I had experienced so many synchronistic moments after my dad had passed that I was busting at the seams wanting to share them. I sometimes worried about what others would think of me if I openly talked about signs from heaven and life after death. The beautiful truth that the dead are never lost is something that I wanted to share beyond myth, legend, and fairytale. Synchronicity made this truth tangible for me, and I felt my story would help others. Synchronicity taught me that all beings are deeply connected, even in death. I felt a deep calling to make this work the center of my life. 

There was one day in particular, right after I quit the insurance biz and focused on writing, that I meditated outside behind my apartment in the sun. There was a long stretch of grass near the woods that lined up against my complex that I often liked to visit. It was a gorgeous spring day. I sat concentrating on a patch of dandelions nearby. The only way I can describe my state of being was one of a blissful trance. I was beaming from the inside out and smiling. I felt at peace with myself and finally free from pressures of a stuffy business job and business school. I knew others (at least the others that were in my life at that point in time) would not understand my choices, but I wanted to share this peace I had found with the world. 
A thought came to me as I happily sat near a bunch of dandelions, enjoying their beautiful bright yellow color that resonated with me as such a happy flower. I thought about how many people think of this beautiful flower as a weed. I realized that I was very much like a dandelion as well. I remember concentrating on a particular sentence as I continued to meditate: “Some people think I am a weed, but really I am a beautiful flower.” This truth truly freed me from any perceived judgements of others. At that moment, it didn’t matter what anyone said or thought about me. My heart was full of love and my soul was lit by a calling to share my spiritual experiences, no matter how others perceived my choices. 

I sat in the sun for quite some time until finally I decided to make my way back to my apartment. As I opened the screen door, I was greeted by my two miniature dachshunds, Reesie and Scooby. Over their happy yelps and wagging tails due to my return home, I heard my email notification on my iPhone go off. I picked up my phone off of the kitchen table to check it out. It was a Live Nation email letting me know I was eligible for a pre-sale for my husband’s favorite band that was going to be playing across the street at Meadowbrook, where they had never played before. I could often hear bands play there from my place it was so close. Extremely interested, I scrolled down the email to get the code. To my absolute joy, the code for the pre-sale just happened to be “dandelion” when moments ago I had meditated so intensely on a dandelion. Albert Einstein once said coincidence is God’s way of remaining anonymous. I took this meaningful coincidence as validation of my break through. When synchronicity happens, I often perceive the meaningful coincidence as the universe’s way of telling me to keep going. 

From that moment on, I haven’t cared about what other people think of me. If there is one thing I learned from that experience it is that even if the majority of the population perceives you as a weed, you will still find others out there who know you as the beautiful flower you are. The perception of a weed and a flower is only established by your mentality. The way you view the world is your choice. To let others’ choices define you is a mistake in thinking. My hope is that this story helps you overcome the judgement of others and know true freedom to be yourself.