Tales of a Spiritually-Closeted Socialite

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Growing up, it was common knowledge for me that we had past lives, angels were real, and our loved ones never truly left us. My mom often taught my sister and I about angels and how to ask for help. We were taught to shield ourselves with white light. If we needed help with anything, we were taught to say “on Angels’ wings…”, something that my sister got tattooed as an adult. As I got older, these beliefs became internal and less acknowledged in everyday interactions. I often explained why I was a vegetarian to people, because I believed humans and animals come from the same source, but I never got much more into it than that.

My dad passed away a month before my 21st birthday. What is an American college girl to do to get over her grief? I started going out… a lot. I was the girl who orchestrated nights out, limos, and townhouse parties. As my social network grew, I often threw VIP parties at local bars, and organized themed parties at my place. I filled my grief with friends and vodka. I didn’t care if you were gay, straight, considered an outcast in high school, or what your background was. I knew life can be hard and that everyone deserved a good time. I feel that’s why so many different kinds of people were friendly with me. If you were the odd one out because you couldn’t afford to come, I would pay. If you needed a ride, I would drive. If you wanted a place to crash, I would accommodate. I loved bringing different people together and having a good time. My little pockets of friends became one big circle. I never wanted the party to end. While I delved deeper into the social scene in southeast Michigan, and made friends around my college, I also started receiving signs and messages from my father through psychics and tangible signs at synchronistic moments, which wasn’t the lightest party subject. I kept a lot of my experiences to myself for awhile. I would go out with metaphysical crystals in my purse, and an angel wing around my neck, all the while feeling a little bit like a hypocrite and not completely myself.

Through my journey I realized my most dramatic signs were experienced while sober. My biggest breakthroughs happened when I gave up drinking. I made a promise to myself to do whatever it took to take care of myself and help my intuition. I started using natural beauty products, gave up drinking, drank lots of fruit smoothies, and ate lots of healthful veggies and fruits (See video: 5 Steps to Develop Psychic Awareness). Signs were coming to me all the time, but I often missed my friends.

While most of my “party” friends lost interest in me when I stopped going out, I hung on to a few. For the sake of privacy, we will be calling my best friend, Miles. Miles and I loved going to a gay bar named Pronto in Royal Oak for Karaoke night. I remember deciding to go out again for the first time since I promised myself to take better care of myself. It would be my first sober night at this particular place.

Miles and I made our way over to the bartenders, who knew our names. I ordered a lemonade instead of my usual raspberry stoli and lemonade. The music was loud and the place was only mildly busy. We stood next to the bar, avoiding blocking others who wanted to walk up for a drink.

I started telling Miles about the increase in signs I had been getting. He knew I had experienced numerology signs, but it was evolving (See video: Signs from Heaven Using Numerology).

“It’s more than just repeating numbers now at weird times. It’s been feathers and pennies lately,” I said loudly over the music. ” I will be thinking about my dad or Angels and I will see a penny in a weird place or a feather will come into my view at that moment.”

While I was looking at Miles, I felt as if something dropped on my right foot. I looked down to see a penny facing up on my black, knee-high boot.

“Umm, are you serious right now?” I exclaimed to my friend. “Did you drop that?”

“No,” Miles answered as he held his drink.

We both looked around. There wasn’t anyone next to us or any sign of someone passing by. At that moment, we both looked up as if it fell from the sky and laughed. Miles had this contagious, goofy laugh everyone loved to mimic. The old bar ceiling was painted a dark color and had patterns that suggested it was built a century ago. It had no logical place a penny could have fallen from.

“That’s really weird,” Miles said, still laughing.

I couldn’t help but smile. I was elated at the sight of a sign right on cue.

“See what I mean! There are even Angels with us right here in the gay bar!” I said, excitedly.

Those moments taught me that the divine is everywhere with everyone, no exceptions. The absence of the divine is just perception from man and is a fallacy. Even in a late night bar with drunken people, the divine is there. No one is excluded. No moment is excluded. It took a night out in a different state of mind to marry my two experiences of life: a party girl, and a spiritual practitioner. Perception is everything.

All Dogs Go to Heaven

The past few months have rocked my world. I’ve known both losses and miracles in such a short time. I am truly sorry to say one of my little co-hosts from my video blogs, Scooby, passed today. He was only a few years old. It’s such a strange feeling, being that he was perfectly healthy a few days ago. The vet could only speculate a bacterial infection or a poison, but something consumed Scooby’s liver, kidneys, and pancreas within a few short days.

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I am an extremely spiritual person and called upon every guide I have to intervene in his sickness and passing. While this has worked to revive my other miniature dachshund, Reesie, last month, I felt almost abandoned in Scooby’s circumstance. Reesie had a slipped disc of the spine and I was told last month she would never walk again. Between natural remedies like turmeric, prayers, and lots of love from both me and Scooby, Reesie could miraculously walk again. After witnessing her miraculous recovery, I was very optimistic when Scooby started throwing up a few days ago.

I thought Scooby was improving last night, so I went to work like normal this morning. I left him cuddling close with Reesie, his paws literally holding her. When I returned home from lunch, he did not lift his head from the bed, just blinked at me. When I held him, he plopped against my shoulder and started vomiting blood without heaving, without moving much, and barely breathing. Without delay, I went to the nearest animal hospital. I put meditation music on in the car and stroked him until we arrived. When I finally got him to the vet, the doctor could not detect a heart beat. I stroked his chest and called for him. As if responding to me, his heart started beating. He looked at me and opened his mouth, as if saying good bye. I will never forget that moment. I called upon the angels for a healing. I wanted nothing more than to be able to take him back home. The vet was not able to regulate his heart beat, but did take him away to give him oxygen and run blood work. It wasn’t long after the results showing his internal organs were failing that the doctor told me he was gone. I glanced down at the time at that moment. It was 2:44 pm. 44’s are a strong angel number. I knew the angels were with him.

A part of me will always believe Scooby deserved better. He had a short life. Before we rescued him, he was found by Furever Homes in Detroit abandoned. He was living in a run down house missing a wall. He was malnourished and needed care. Instantly upon fostering him, he became part of the family. We finally adopted him shortly after. Reesie and Scooby were two peas in a pod. He bonded with my husband on a deep level. You could see an old, sweet soul in his eyes. He barely barked (except for peanut butter) and was always so affectionate. Scooby’s nature humbled me. How could a being abandoned by the world and left to starve to death, be so truly serene, loving and trusting?

Moments like these make you really think about what’s important in life. My favorite moments in the past few years seemed almost insignificant in the present as it passed me by. Every moment I spent with both my dogs cuddling, playing, and loving, whether it was when we cuddled in bed, went for long walks, or played along the “wiener rail” (the back of my couch), I will never forget the tender moments we all shared together. Life is so short. Never waste a moment that you can share love, whether it be with an animal, a family member, or a friend.

Even though my feeble human mind can not understand why some live and some die, I know a bigger plan is in place. The angels were there today with Scooby, even though he did not live to see another day. I do not believe his death was meaningless. I pulled a card from the “Talking with Heaven” deck from James Van Praagh and Doreen Virtue tonight. It said, “I am now one of your guides.” What a strong guide this sweet soul will be. You were more than a dog to me, Scooby, you were a soulmate. You will always be a part of my soul group, little buddy. You were an earth angel who gave so much love and taught me so much with your unconditionally loving soul. See you again one day.

In Memory…

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Follow Your Intuition: Identifying Truth from Mistruths

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You know the feeling when someone says something that doesn’t resonate. Trust those feelings. Our emotions are our way of sorting the truth from the mistruths. When something doesn’t feel right, it probably isn’t. Finding the deeper meaning beneath the surface level is to find the truth.

We live in a world of people wearing social masks. It becomes increasingly more difficult to tell apart the liars from the truth tellers on a surface level. This is where our intuition comes into play. Our intuitive nature is an emotional place. Our emotions will let us know, setting off an alarm internally when something doesn’t feel right. It is our soul letting us know that there is something else going on beneath the surface. Feeling a lie is like feeling a melody go out of tune. Trust your instincts.

The Other Side of Tragedy

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I am always genuinely smiling no matter what is going on in life. Even while facing the most adverse situations in my life, I always find happiness. How you may ask? The truth is, it is all about perspective.

When I look back in my life, whether it be losing a scholarship, losing my father to cancer, or losing a child, every tragic situation has changed my life. I view even perceived problems by many as blessings from God. Whenever something major happens, it is as if God sent me a magical shift in my life’s road map. Even chaotic situations eventually settle. Where the dust settles always turns out to be exactly what I needed, even if I couldn’t see it at the time. Trust, have faith, keep moving forward and be happy in knowing that everything turns out exactly as it’s supposed to with divine blessings for all. Having this mentality will literally align your life in miraculous ways.

Is that You or your Ego?

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We are free will beings. We can choose which to bring into this world: loving-self or ego-self. Ego judges and punishes. Love forgives and heals. Love is the only thing that is real.

Never take someone’s ego personally. No matter how they behave, they are still a creation from the divine. Don’t get caught up in someone’s projection of an illusion. As it is their free will choice to act in a loving way, or an ego-centric way, it is your choice whether or not to be hurt by someone else’s behaviors. Stay in the light. ✌

Manifestation Begins with Intention

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The power of clear intentions bring about more precise manifestations. Every manifestation starts with a thought. Setting clear intentions with your thoughts is a powerful way to bring about your desires more quickly. From Jim Carrey, to Will Smith, to Oprah, many successful people in this current day and age have talked about how they set clear intentions about what goals they want to bring into their lives before they even begin to try to achieve it.

Before I ever wrote a page, I set out the intention to write a book with my thoughts. I did this visualization process all the time in the business world and was successful at it, so I took this process to a new venture. I pictured what it would feel like to bring about a spiritually-minded book. I pictured what it would feel like to hold it in my hand, to be interviewed about it, and to have a concise, tangible book where I could share my experiences and thoughts on spirituality, law of attraction, and the afterlife.

The manifestation process is following up on your inner guidance from your intentions for your desired manifestation. It seemed like a little amount of effort added up to huge transformations over time as the universe clearly responded to the intentions I set. I was connected with thought leaders in the field of publishing and spiritual teaching to affirm I was on the right path. Less than a year later, I have most of my book written. My intention has been manifesting into form, and it has been the most rewarding process.

This process can used to manifest in many areas of life. Be a scientist and try it for yourself. Next time you wake up in the morning, set clear intentions for the day you would like to manifest ahead. Visualize how it will feel at the end of the day to have had the experiences you desire for yourself. Whether you set the intention to connect with helpful people, to flow through your schedule with ease, or to manifest abundance with your sales, your intention in the morning is your way to co-create the day ahead with the universe. Follow your guidance and go with the flow, and watch your manifestations unfold.

How Numerology and Synchronicity Work Together

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Numerology is the study of number meanings. One area of study is to recognize angel numbers. Those who have experienced angel numbers recognize that repeating numbers are divine messages from our angels. Angels communicate with us in a variety of ways, including signs from nature, coins appearing without knowing the source, feathers appearing, giving us recurring divinely-inspired ideas, our dreams at night, angel cards and, of course, angel numbers.

Our divine messages through seeing repeating numbers get ever increasingly more interesting when they appear to us at synchronistic moments. Synchronicity is a meaningful coincidence. When you see an angel number moments after you asked the angels for help, or during a specific situation that worked itself out miraculously, the meaning behind angel numbers is enhanced by it’s synchronistic moment. I will give an example that happened to me recently.

Last night, I had a difficult time falling asleep due to a terrible stomachache. When that happens, I love listening to angel-themed guided meditations. Specifically, I started listening to an angel therapy playlist on my iPhone by Doreen Virtue at about 12:30 am. During the meditation, I mentally asked Archangel Raphael, the healing angel, to heal my pains so that I may drift asleep. I must’ve drifted to sleep moments later. My playlist must have been on repeat because I awoke in the middle of the night to Doreen restating the part about healing with Archangel Raphael. It seemed like I only drifted off moments before but time must have passed because I had already heard this part.

I reached for my iPhone to slide it open. As Doreen mentioned Archangel Raphael’s name, I saw it was 4:44 am. 444 means that angels and archangels are everywhere around you, making their presence known. I then realized at that moment that my stomach pains had ceased. I was healed and had been sleeping for hours. In that synchronistic moment, I realized Archangel Raphael had heard my prayers and wanted to let me know of his healing presence.

This is only one example of many. I write a lot about my first experiences in my upcoming book and how I first invited divine messages into my life. Synchronicity and numerology work hand in hand to give us tangible messages from heaven. Understanding and noticing how numerology and synchronicity work together will increase the number of experiences you have. When these experiences happen to you, the presence of the divine is always with you without any doubt.

Surrender Your Ego: Get Out of Your Own Way!

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It seems so simple to say get out of your own way, but its a point so many people on this planet miss. Are you your own worst critic? Are you fearful of making a bad choice? Are you scared to fail? Do you turn down opportunities after talking yourself out of it? Do you talk yourself out of trying something new? Do you convince yourself that mediocrity is okay? If you answered yes to any of these questions, this message is for you.

I meet so many who block their own abundance in their lives. Worry and doubts can attract the very miserable experiences you are trying to avoid. I have been guilty of it myself so I am speaking from a place of love so that the next person can avoid it. I don’t know about you, but at the end of the day I don’t want to say I simply “got through” my life. I want to enjoy all that life has to offer. The best way to do this is to become a “Yes Man” to God, the Angels, and the Universe with every good thing that presents itself to you.

God wants to shower us with infinite abundance. It took me a long time to realize that it takes a great deal of energy to be broke and manifest misery. If you constantly talk yourself out of opportunities, people, and new things, you may totally be missing your boat to abundance. If you control others trying to help you out of fear and turn them down, you are blocking the help coming your way. The good news is that there are an infinite number of opportunities available. It is never too late to start to notice the chance meetings, good information, or people coming your way.

I strongly believe God works through us and reaches down to us through others. It’s time to get out of your own way and enjoy everything the Universe has to offer. No more excuses. Know in your heart that abundance is here for you, and take the action steps you are guided to take. If your path isn’t clear, meditate. Ask for a sign. Do something. Anything is better than staying passive. I promise you that the Universe will answer. It’s time to let go, surrender the fears from your ego, and start living the promises today.

Reaching for the Stars; Overcoming Challenges

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Make your challenges part of your success story! Many extraordinary people throughout history had their start in difficult circumstances. What these extraordinary people had in common is that they never gave up. Often our perceived challenges are actually gifts of wisdom and experience from our Creator. We came to Earth to learn. If everything was perfect, there would be little to learn. Remember that this planet is a school. Look for the lessons in your challenges. To find wisdom behind perceived chaos is a blessing. Imagine what extraordinary destiny awaits you once you overcome your hardships. Everything in life, including our problems, is temporary. Persevere with open eyes, and watch your destiny unfold.

Living the Law of Attraction

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Albert Einstein posed a question meant for us to question the very nature of our existence. “Is the Universe a friendly place?” Based on what we know about quantum physics and the law of attraction, I believe we can answer yes, the universe is a friendly place. As someone who has manifested both miracles and problems into her life, I can say without a shred of doubt that the universe is willing to bring you anything you wish. Even though I have manifested horrible things, I have also manifested seemingly impossible good fortune.

Whatever your focus is on becomes manifested into material form. Belief makes the unbelievable tangible. Want to see an angel? After continuously focusing on my belief in a spiritual experience, I finally experienced many amazing things. Worried about a car being repossessed? Worries can block all abundance to help pay for that car, so the universe helped there as well…. Like earning thousands the day after it’s repossession. A little too ironic, right? Focused on abundance and a huge bank account? I’ve been there too and used my riches to share with my family, friends, and causes I cared about. Worried about a bad grade? The focus will make you late or miss class due to unforeseen circumstances no matter how hard you studied. Want to talk to that spiritual guru you’ve been listening to on the radio? No problem. The universe brought a phone call to me through mutual friends. Want that reading by that medium so in demand she has a 4 year waiting list and charges a ridiculous fee? No problem. Belief you will speak can bring you to that right time right place moment, free of any charge, I may add. Want a paid writing opportunity? A stay-at-home business? Belief will make these things come to you almost effortlessly.

After seeing these patterns in my own life, I can without a doubt say the universe is a friendly place. One spiritual teacher I admire explains that the universe is like an over-eager genie granting your wish before you even say “I wish for”. The universe is granting them by responding to your thoughts. Your thoughts literally manifest everything in your life. Not everyone likes to hear this because it requires taking responsibility for the good and the bad, but it is 100% true.

Thank goodness all manifestations take time and consistent focus and action steps. Emotions can give us clues about whether our thoughts are focused on our highest good or not. Bad feelings about the worries you have will give you previews, like a loving warning before it manifests into form. The other realization that helped is to realize positive loving thoughts are way more powerful than negative ones. However, consistent worry will attract the very things you don’t want.

Realizing this freeing concept that the universe really does want us to have what we need has invited career opportunities, friendships, love, and abundance that I always wanted. Einstein’s intent to leave us exploring this question has given us a whole new understanding of consciousness. Reality can be whatever you would like it to be. Life really can be a dream. There is always a way… even though our feeble human minds cannot see an answer, the divine can. Let the universe do the heavy lifting.